Are you kidding me? Modeling can be quite fun at times… but it is an incredibly demanding job mentally and physically. You are constantly surrounded by people looking at your body and tearing you apart (it really does take a toll on how you view yourself) - The industry demands that you meet a certain kind of standard and it can weigh very heavily on how you view your own body. The traveling and constant shooting and being away from home … removes you from all the things that you love and crave to be around - For years, I spent more time on the road than I spent at home. I was isolated on the road and it always ruined me a bit…. As you make a name for yourself, you start to spend less time doing the things that keep you grounded and stable as a human being … And more and more time, on the road, floating around, losing yourself in the depths of this modeling world…
The only way to survive a job like this? Is to find balance…. To surround yourself with things that make you happy and to remember that you are a real person with real needs and that your mental state and your happiness… comes FAR before the ever-demanding industry…
I cannot tell you how many times I have had to just step back … And breathe … In Cleveland, I took a year off and worked as a Pizza Girl (not a glamourous job, but I just wanted to do something totally different to calm my brain… I just wanted to feel grounded again.) - In Rochester, I went to school to become certified in Dog Grooming and I worked a Grooming job for a year in order to stay closer to home, to be closer to the people that I love and enjoy… And it helped. Sometimes. You just have to find the ground under your feet and stabilize before continuing forward.